30 Days of Presence
I’ve been germinating an idea since yesterday and have decided to take a leap of faith and commitment.
Today begins a month of healing transformation. I’ve dubbed it 30 Days of Presence. Actually, it was my counselor’s idea, the result of my describing to her how I had recently experienced a completely spontaneous Saturday filled with no plans and no obligations. The day flowed from task to decision to event with only moments of pre-ordered thought between each.
By the end of the day, I was joyfully weary. The day felt like one long sigh. Satisfaction settled into my bones and I felt the first sustained sense of peace since Mom passed.
As I told my counselor the story, she said that people would pay to buy a book about how one maintained 30 days of such moment-by-moment presence. We joked about the impossibility of taking 30 days away from “the real world” and spoke longingly of the allure of a silent retreat at a monastery overlooking the ocean.
A nice idea, but not very practical in my super-stressed, highly mobile, so-much-work-to-do world.
But I haven’t been able to let go of the idea. I keep thinking, “what better time than now?” It’s the first day of the month, so there is the inherent new beginning. Here’s the best part: I’ve already been working on ways to practice loving self-care and in general strengthen my spiritual connection.
All signs point to 30 Days of Presence. Even The Daily Word agrees: Design is today’s word and the affirmative statement is “I design my life in cooperation with the Divine.” If the affirmation isn’t enough, the reading asks the question, “With God as my partner, what masterpiece do I want to consciously create?”
After reading the entry, I promptly poured another cup of coffee and made the following agreements with myself and committed to 30 Days of Presence:
1. Focus fully on what is in front of me, not behind or ahead of me.
2. Do one thing at a time.
3. Allow my feelings; they deserve presence too.
4. Make plans minimally.
5. Go easy, be patient and have no judgment about my progress.
6. Be flexible with these agreements.
Now, walk to the end of the diving board, take a deep breath and dive in–the water is Divine.