I’m experiencing the Big Book’s promise that fear of economic insecurity will disappear.
For those unfamiliar with the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous (the book carries the same name as the organization), millions worldwide rely on its teaching. It’s also known as a textbook for recovery.
I don’t claim to know the book backwards and forwards, in spite of its persistent connection with my life for more than two decades. I know people who quote the book constantly, often flinging the words about with the fervor of a street preacher.
For me, the Big Book is not a sacred text so much as it is the spiritually inspired wisdom of the co-founder of AA. For that reason, I hold it in respectful esteem.
The familiar phrasing of the most quoted promises sandwiched between AA’s eighth and ninth steps begins, “If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are halfway through.”
The promise that comes a bit later in the section reads, “Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us.” That’s the one that is filling my mind and heart right now.
Here’s why: Somewhere during the last six weeks as my sweetie and I maneuvered through our move, I crossed an imaginary line from spastic, worrying and fearful Beth to calm, peaceful, come-what-may Beth.
After we found out that we qualified for our beautiful new home, I heaved a huge sigh of relief. I dodged a bullet because I’m still a fledgling self-employed entrepreneur with a credit score that’s lower than I would like.
But that was a turning point for me. Suddenly, I viscerally believed the words that my sweetie continued to say to me: “Everything is going to work out just fine. God’s got this.” Looking backwards at that line in the sand, I knew then that she was 100% correct.
My new MINI
I felt so good about my new-found surrender and belief in the Promise that I decided to get a new car this week too. Five days after we moved in. I know–crazy, right? Uh huh.
On Tuesday, I spent nearly seven hours in the company of the fabulous folks at the MINI of Plano, TX dealership and I had a great time! If you’re in the area, be sure to check it out. There’s no other car dealership like it, I’m convinced!
Throughout the back-and-forth negotiation process (which I actually enjoyed), I was cool and confident. I set my intention of what I wanted and if it didn’t work, I was okay with walking away without malice or judgment. The thought of adding a car payment to my already tight monthly cash-flow was just that: a thought.
Zero fear of economic insecurity.
Can I share a secret? Since this new understanding and acceptance of the Promise settling around me, I’ve had an unexpected check arrive, picked up a new client and just yesterday, learned of a major project that I’ll soon undertake.
My lesson? Let go and the return is immense! My secret weapon is the shortest, easiest prayer of surrender I’ve heard. Three words: “Okay, God, whatever.”
Try it. Set your sites on the Promise, test the prayer of surrender and let me know what you experience. Hold on for a great adventure!
Photo courtesy of jemolesky