If you’ve ever spent any amount of time in a stream of seemingly bad luck, you know how hard it is to stay positive.
If you’re there right now, I feel your pain. I’ve written about losing my job six weeks ago and a bit about the accompanying crappy details like being denied unemployment, scheduling and preparing for an appeal hearing, finding out my insurance has lapsed in spite of COBRA and the grueling process of debt consolidation.
The icing on the cake was last week’s unexpected but typical family drama. The proverbial straw . . .
I know, poor, poor, pitiful me.
It’s tough being spiritual, isn’t it, when you’re clinging to a log in the middle of that rough-water stream?
Tough, but not impossible.
You and I know that the logs we metaphorically hang on to–the ones with the claw marks–represent the stuff that’s hurting us, the circumstances or people we must let go.
But before you can let go, there is something that needs to happen.
You need to become willing.
That’s right. Everything you experience in life is about the decisions you make. You either made a decision already or you need to make a decision and think you can’t.
Do you know why you can’t? You haven’t become willing.
I’ve spent the better part of the last six weeks terrified that the money will run out, we’ll become homeless and begging with Jazzy on a street corner.
Well, maybe I’m not quite that fearful. But I have been clinging to a big ‘ole log of fear even as I’ve known that I need to let it go.
But there was a piece missing. The piece was willingness.
Willingness precedes every growth step.
I was having a conversation over the weekend with friends about spiritual experiences and how to know if we’d had one. Several people said they only learn to appreciate an event as a spiritual experience after they became willing to open themselves to having them.
Do you agree?
Reading in the text of A Course in Miracles confirmed the piece about decisions. “If you cannot hear the Voice for God, it is because you do not choose to listen. That you do listen to the voice of your ego is demonstrated by your attitudes, your feelings and your behavior,” reads ACIM.
Choosing to listen to the voice on your spiritual path or to your ego is your decision, of course. That’s why we have free will.
And free will decisions are always about either fear or love. Will you continue to clutch the log in fear or are you willing to let go and open yourself to your cinema of spiritual experiences?
Give it some thought, and if you’re willing, I’d love to hear from you in the comments below.
B Well & Willing!
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