One’s philosophy is not best expressed in words; it is expressed in the choices one makes . . . and the choices we make are ultimately our responsibility. ~ Eleanor Roosevelt
How many times have you stood before two (or more!) sets of circumstances, tapped your finger against your lips and said, “Hmmm, decisions, decisions”?
You may struggle with deciding but isn’t the power of choice an amazing thing?
What happens when you can’t decide which circumstance to choose? You make a pros and cons list. You talk it over with your most trusted “advisors.” You pray.
And you’re still at a loss. By now, you’re threatening to tear out your hair. Your teeth are sore from gnashing. Your sleep is completely screwed up by your lack of decisiveness.
Plus, you’re eating way too much chocolate.
Get out of waiting hell
The purgatory of waiting can be miserable. I’m doing a bit of that right now as I wait for contract jobs to finalize so money will flow into my bank account.
These are circumstances not in my control, yet I’m doing my best to force them to a rapid conclusion. Yes, I’m in waiting hell.
But I can decide to leave and I have.
I am still waiting, but my body and my demeanor feel looser as I realize that I am giving money way too much power in my life. I’m changing my thoughts from believing that money buys happiness and walks on the beach into realizing that money is useless and pointless if I’m not already happy.
In truth, I have no need for money if I’m trusting in a power greater than me to guide my decisions. Now, instead of fretting about money, I wait in the knowledge that everything is good and right and perfect in this moment.
Trust your gut
Do you trust yourself to make good decisions? Over the years, I’ve learned that my gut–my intuition–is seldom wrong. My gut knows the truth behind the decision long before my brain starts yearning for peace.
In the meantime, my monkey-mind has been so very busy trying to cajole the rest of me into a decision. Monkeys have a way of looking at situations from all the different angles and my monkey-mind is no exception when I let it run around unsupervised.
Once I’ve exited Waiting Hell, however, Monkey Mind quiets and decides to take a nap since it has become weary from the constant motion.
Quiet little monkeys no longer have to maneuver around negativity showing up as doubt, fear, guilt, judgment or condemnation.
They can just rest and trust that they will intuitively know if they want to eat honey-coated bananas or ants-on-a-stick for supper.
They will know when they know and not a moment sooner.
My dear monkey-minded friends, I encourage you to relax into waiting. Your bananas will come even if it seems like you’ll have to subsist on ants forever. Just wait; you’ll see.
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