It’s Great to Let Go; I Should Have Started Sooner
The post title is a quote from a TED Talk given by Chilean writer Isabel Allende. In her talk, she spoke about passion and how we’re never too old to follow our dreams (she’s 71). Be sure to watch her eight-minute video shown below.
Letting go has been on my mind as 2014 continues to give me ample opportunities to practice what I preach. We all know it’s much easier to preach than practice what we preach, right?
I’m not alone in the quest to let go.
Just yesterday, one of my friend’s posts hit my inbox. Admittedly, I groaned a bit as I read the title: “Letting Go for Health and Happiness,” by Sandra Pawula.
Sandra, who writes Always Well Within, bemoans her continual over-push beyond her capacity. I love this part because I think she wrote it for me:
“I think it’s so important to be clear about our addictions, our impulses, and our edges. So I offer you this question for personal reflection today:
Are you driven to repeatedly engage in a behavior that’s not really good for your health or happiness? Is there a place in your life where you need to say, ‘I cannot do this anymore?’”
Oh, that’s so me. Right now, I’m in severe over-push mode to make money. You know, pay the bills, put a little back for the rainy days which are coming pretty frequently.
My business is riding a roller coaster of promised work, then wait. Get closer to a decision, then wait some more. Maddening as it is, that’s the nature of client work. Whatever.
Then there’s the possibility of a surprise oral surgery–me, who has no dental insurance. OMG–I need more work!
Sandra’s right. I am addicted to this response that follows virtually all my predicaments, “Okay, let’s figure this out now.” No matter what the “this” is, I’ll lose sleep, patience and serenity in my quest to find the right and perfect answer.
My sweetie reminded me yesterday that if I’m praying, I need not worry and if I’m worrying, there’s no point in praying. That was sort of an ouchie. Once again, I’m not practicing what I preach because worrying is definitely not mindful.
Back to Ms. Allende’s talk about passion
The good news is there is an antidote for not letting go of the things that worry me. Isabel Allende suggests focusing on my passion. After all, enthusiasm for my passion is mine to control.
Two things come to mind. First, I am passionate about writing, so while client work is finding its way to me, I can write my ass off. Then write some more.
Second, I can choose to constantly flip my “oh-my-god-what-am-I-going-to-do” thoughts to something positive. Luckily, my friend Tess Marshall sent me a link the other day to Hannah Marcotti’s website. Hannah is an incredible storyteller, poet and vision-maker who urges me to create a cut-and-paste vision book and then fill it with positive, soul-stirring pictures and words.
I’m doing it! Because one of the tenets of my life is the line from Field of Dreams: “If we build it, they will come.”
So, I’ll keep writing and visioning and believing. THAT is my passion. What is your passion and how do you use it to overcome compulsive, perhaps addictive, thought patterns?
P.S. The photo accompanying this post reflects my belief in the abundance of life. Just as this tree has a seeming unending number of branches, so too do we have an unending supply of abundance in our lives–if we’re willing to see and believe.
Photo by jemolesky