Surely Goodness and Mercy
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, I wrote in my journal on Ash Wednesday.
What I wrote next was certainly not the rest of the Psalm. Watch out for the one named Surely. She can be an unpredictable wretch.
Wow. Where did that come from? No clue–but I know that on the morning of Ash Wednesday, I woke feeling a sense of goodness and mercy. The day before was one of those heavy-body, force-the-motions days and I was grateful for the relief.
Bye, bye Surely.
Shifting attitudes and grasping for joy
Turns out that the first day of Lent was a day of goodness and mercy. My sweetie got a phone call and employment offer she’d been patiently waiting for (sort of!) and we breathed a collective sign of relief.
Uncertainty and unpredictability are strange companions. When times are good–the rent and health insurance are paid and the dogs don’t missed a meal–it’s easy to stay open to whatever comes your way.
Take a risk! Be daring! Live a little more!
When you’re not sweating out the timed arrival of a check, it’s oh-so-easy to feel carefree.
When you’re all bunched up inside worrying about your bills and your credit, it is so damned hard to let your old friends, Goodness and Mercy, wrap their arms around you.
You might try the tough-guy, stiff-hug-with-three-pats-on-the-back approach with Goodness and Mercy but they see right through your attempts to grasp for joy.
What are you waiting for? Go all-in!
In order to get anything from your relationships, you have to go all-in. Is there really any other way that is satisfactory? What do you have to lose?
I wrote in my journal, Remember six years ago when you said you were all in? You said you were ready to leave predictability and certainty behind! Remember? (A journal is a good way to talk to yourself and still accomplish a daily regimen.)
Now, today, there is a beautiful, day–or evening, depending on your part of the world–stretched out in front of you. How will you play it? Granted, you have no idea what to expect, but isn’t that the point of living?
Who wants to know things before they happen? Think about that one . . .
You’ll see clues along the way if your eyes are open and your mind focused sharply on the Now. Follow those clues.
And if you see Surely out there, remember she’s the cranky one. Step around her and move on.
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