So goes the spiritual life. Too often, I allow lack of perfection to be my dilemma. As I tried to sleep last night–hard to do when you can’t stop crying–my mind kept calling me a particularly bad name. Fraud.
My thoughts: “How dare you deign to write about your experiences with the Twelve Powers during the 12 Days of Christmas and then behave the way you did? Do you really expect that your readers will find you credible? You’re not and tonight proves it. You’re nothing but a fraud, so you might as well hang up your pen and your keyboard.”
As I continued to cry, I believed those mean words I was heaping on myself. Then suddenly, I found myself praying, “God I need help here. I don’t know what I need but I do know I need your will to be done.”
I fell asleep and when I woke this morning to meditate and write, I discovered today’s word on this Eighth Day of Christmas is Will.
God is so good.
Unity considers Will to be “the ability to choose, decide, command, lead, determine.”
The part that most interests me is the choosing part, as in, I can choose to change the direction of my thoughts so that I don’t believe the mean and ugly things The Ego throws at me.
Here’s an excerpt from Your God-Given Potential: Unfolding the Twelve Spiritual Powers, by Winifred Wilkinson Hausmann:
“It is our job in developing our God-given potentialities to re-educate the will, the directing power of our mind, to teach it to become receptive to spiritual motivation, rather than to goals determined by our materialistic pursuits alone.
“… One way or another, we are using our will, our executive mind power, all the time. We choose a course of action. We resist or resent. We submit or fight back. We aim high or we slide backward. Or we are willing to consecrate and dedicate our will to God and to let it be re-educated to go His way.
“… The rewards of unifying our wills with the will of God are great. They include health, happiness, joy, peace, harmony, prosperity and other good that we cannot even visualize in our present state of consciousness.
“… Many inharmonies in human relationships result from the clash of human wills. Learning to activate the divine will in your life does not mean that you will simply submit to the human will of others. Instead, it will give you a new freedom that recognizes the human force applied by others but does not submit to it.
“… We can start first to awaken the will and train it by consciously watching its activities and directing it through our growing spiritual understanding.”
And everyone said Amen.